I chose to better myself — a body and physique that I can be proud of. A CV, or just a paper summarizing achievements outside myself, doesn’t seem too important anymore.

I really wanted to have a conversation with him, and ask him if he’s taking the dating seriously. I know it’s too early to think about relationship, and that’s not what I’m asking. What I’m asking is the dating — is he taking the dating seriously and hoping best scenario where something comes out of it, or he’s just trying to meet a new friend to hang out with? I really want to know because it requires two different types of energy, and I’m tired of chasing the uncertainty.

But I also expect that this time the relationship might work, and maybe Andrei is different than those stereotyped flight attendants. If that’s the case, I don’t want my insecurity and suspicion to ruin this for me.