Do I still want him back? Yes I do, but I certainly didn’t write this letter hoping to get him back. Like he said, we should let it happen organically, so I’ll just treat him as a normal friend: not totally cutting him off, but also not getting too close. If he came back, I’d do anything to make it right and have a second try. I’ll cherish the opportunity. If he didn’t, I wouldn’t be depressed either. People are meant to be walking their own ways alone, aren’t they?

Instead, I said, “You can’t give me what I want.“ He said well then I’m sorry. How I really want him to know that, he is exactly what I want.

Let’s try to make life exciting and interesting again, just like the first time we stay in a luxury apartment, and thought, wow never knew people can live in such a nice apartment. Look at the big window, the clean design, the high end kitchen, organized cabinets!